I feel like when I blog, I walk a fine line between making things rosier than they appear and complaining too much. I’m a recovering complainer. I never want to give the wrong impression, so forgive me if I lean one way or the other. When I read other people’s blogs, especially those I don’t really know, I get hard on myself. I start questioning my own mothering skills, my relationship with John, or just how I look from the outside in. I guess just measuring myself against others, which I’ve learned is an exhausting game to play and can either lead to pride or inferiority. Neither of those feelings rest well with me.
So I’ve had to really focus in some basic truths. First, I’ve needed to remind myself that God has each of us on a path that is uniquely designed for us. And, reflecting on the fact, that He knows us perfectly because He is our creator–so why fight the path/place I am in? Second, just realizing that other people’s affirmations or even my affirmations of myself are worthless b/c the only source of real affirmation is Christ’s unconditional love for me. So easy to write, so hard to remember.
