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I cannot figure out my almost 3 year old,  Henry.  He’s been driving me insane for the last 3 weeks.  Everything is a battle.  Whining all.day.long.  Calling me names, favorites include “You are stupid mommy.  You not my mommy anymore.”  Hitting me.  Throwing things.  And yes, he has received consequences for his behaviors, but apparently they are not the right ones that will get him to stop.  By the end of my days, I have felt totally wiped out emotionally.  I’m torn between calling Super Nanny or Jerry Springer to be on the show “My 3-year old beats me up.”

What’s crazy is that a month ago I distinctly remember sitting on the couch with him thinking that I didn’t think it’s possibly for me to love this sweet Henry anymore than I did right then.  What happened to that sweet boy?

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I haven’t posted in over a week.  I’m feeling like a bad blogger.  It hasn’t meant that a lot hasn’t been going on.  Quite the contrary.

Among the big highlights of last week are me having a gall bladder attack on Wednesday and our vacation to Branson getting canceled because of John’s work.  Both major bummers.

Now we are over last week and on to this week.  I took a week off of baby-sitting children other than my own.  JJ starts Jumpstart Kindergarten which is a 4-week program Webster schools does for kids who have never been to preschool.  Henry and George are going to our baby sitter’s Kid Camp that she is putting on every morning this week.  If you do the math, I have NO kids every morning this week.

This is when I freak out a bit.  What am I going to do?  Should I start a to-do list? Start planning every minute of this 3 hours in the morning? Or not do anything – which I am really uncomfortable with doing.

So I’m referring back to an older post for ideas of how I spend my free Friday mornings during the school year.  My desire is to prayerful about this time and spend it doing only things that I feel are life-giving to me.  So I’m going to resist the urge to clean out any closet or tackle anything big, but really try to just be and rest.

To help me post more regularly, I am also going to post what I did each morning.  Hopefully, this will make me more accountable and won’t get any moms who are currently in the trenches too jealous.

I started the week off right and had my friend Maddie, also the best massage therapist EVER, come over and give me a massage.

I always ask people “what’s new?”. It’s my failed attempt to  get conversation going.  I guess it is rooted in the fact that I really don’t like “How are you?”.  I feel like it is such an automatic response, for me at least, and it’s usually follows “Hi…”  But the problem with “What’s new?” is that people usually don’t have a lot going on or they do have a lot going on, but it’s all day-to-day life stuff.  Nothing exciting, nothing you can pinpoint that exact second to respond to the question. At least this is my experience. I don’t like small talk. Read more…

My Fridays are back.  This is b/c I take the boys to a during the school year to Kids Day Out program from 9-12:30pm.  I started doing it a year and a half ago  and  it was actually John’s idea to give me a break…I know right – how lucky am I?!?!  So 3 1/2 hours of whatever I want.  I totally recommend this to every mom, even if it’s just a couple hours a week.

But this year I am going to make some changes to how use this time.  I want to make my Fridays a time of renewing, re-charging, re-connecting, basically just put “re-” in front of a word and that’s what I want.  I want to make it my restart day.  I want to hold this time precious and sacred because of the impact that it can have on the rest of my week.

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The last week or more has been hard with the boys and life I guess.  The boys are all dealing with various sleep issues from calling out from bed, crawling out of his crib (that’s a big one) and lil’ G just thinks its an all night smorgasbord.  John and I have been getting no sleep, but then again what did we expect w/3 babes under 4 years old. Read more…