I have been seeing a counselor for almost a year now. It’s not that I’ve had any major events or problems going on, I really just wanted a professional Christian sounding board to figure out why I am the way I am.
It’s funny because I have a lot of friends with a background in counseling, so it seemed natural and almost assumed that I go to one. But 5 years ago, I would have asked, “Why are you in counseling?” now I feel like it’s, “Why AREN’T you in counseling?” It’s great – I love it and highly recommend it.
Anyways, one of the issues I had was that I was concerned about my incessant need for order. This pertains especially to my physical environment. There is a definite correlation between my state of mind and the order of my house. i.e. if it is cluttered, I am more on edge and if it is clean I am more at peace. I love the mantra, “A place for everything and everything in it’s place” – just the idea of that makes me happy.
So, I brought this “issue” of mine to Krista, my counselor, and explained to her all the above. I was fully prepared for a clinical diagnosis of Obsessive Compulsive Disorder, control freak, etc. or a detailed family genome of why I am like this – but I didn’t get any of that.
Instead, she said (paraphrased), “That I wasn’t abnormal to feel this way and that I was created for Eden, where everything has a place and everything is in it’s place. But instead, I’m here and I’m just trying to make order out of chaos. ”
Yeah, I left feeling pretty good after that session. And what she said totally made sense to me – after all she’s the professional. I hope that’s encouraging for anyone who’s felt the same way.
